Never knew that by joining this sport, it has just make me paranoid and confused. I think for those people who are classified as big or lean should just shut the hell up and be contented. Cos if you are big, good for you, means you are lucky and stop denying the fact that you're big or even worse saying you're small. And if you're lean, good for you too, cos you can pull your own weight and have nice cutting all around, hey, you don't need some chisel nor hammer. But what the hell, what if you are neither here nor there. What do you do when you're not big and not lean, your muscles are huge and lean with veins protruding outta of your skin. What do you do when you just have a just a stomach with no abs, your shoulders isn't define and is said to be just connected to your arms, your biceps are God forbidden cos no matter what you do, it never comes out. But hey, at least I'm not the weakest, yes, I'm not big nor am I lean, but I think I'm smack in the middle, I'm just mediocre. I consider myself to be around the bottom few in the team. At least, I have something to excel in, which is my running. But i find that many will discard running immediately after 2.4. Man, people are so full of themselves sometimes, people will come to you and despise you cos you look the same, make fun of you cos you've rowing problems, cos your pull ups ain't as much as there's, cos your body isn't define like theirs. Yup, they neglect that your 2.4 which has been the best so far in the team. I'm not bragging I'm defending my God damn rights. It's very demoralizing and defeats the purpose of me trying every time when I get pinned down. Try running 2.4 below 9:10 most of the time. It's not easy to be the best in everything, but at least I'm good in something. So many of them correct me when I'm rowing, in the end they do the same mistake, I never say shit. So many hit 20 plus pull-ups kicking and not letting go fully, I never say shit. Try doing gym without supplements, see whether you grow big or lean. Try doing shit when your injuries come in waves after waves like farmers ploughing for rice. Seriously, I would have been contented with my strength, my body and my abilities as a rower, but people comments around me hurts to the core and that it has made me paranoid. Yes, you may say that this is a form of motivation. Please if you wanna correct someone, be sure you do it constructively, furthermore, make sure you're well aware of your own mistakes. Well, you already think you're high and almighty, cos you can talk about others, think again. One of my senior quoted from the bible that I remember ever so vividly like it was yesterday...it goes something like this,"Why do you look at the speck of dust in your brother's eye when there is a plank of wood in your own eye." I think I've adopted this code quite well, cos I hardly comment on other people's flaws. Cos I know myself that I have flaws too which needs to be mended. Furthermore when you do try to correct him, the idiot's ego is already filled to the brim and without a shadow of a doubt will ignore you or worse get into a squabble with you Yes, now I'm even more paranoid cos of my stupid injury which is in some way imminent, people prolly think I want to slack off. I tell you now, that I hate that kinda shit, that i wanna slack. I'm currently trying my best to prioritize with the busy schedule I've, this goes to say that I have been taken for granted. If only people take their precious time and actually talk things out, they will find that things aren't complicated at all. They just need to put down their ego and not splutter nonsense out. If you have nothing nice to say then don't say! I think I hardly said any harsh words to really inflict heartache to my team mates or make them hate me. I mean when asked about me, I would like to be remembered as mischievous, bright and cheery or the guy that made the team re-do 2.4. Btw that's really not because I was lazy rather ignorant to the situation. Or would you rather people remember you as that asshole whom insults and gives destructive and hurtful comments or the time? Who will you choose to be?, Yes, there is politics from time to time but i guess that ought to happen when the team is big :) Will be gratified to continue to run,row and go through shit with my team!!! :)
Btw, this post isn't for anyone particular but just my cry out not too long ago :) Hope this post isn't too serious :) God bless us all cos we're all
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Tough times don't last, tough men do!!!
